So Now I Know

Today, I found out who i really am. How things change so much. What have I really become. I found that the person who I am, Was the one thing that I never wanted to be. I am just like any other stupid guy. The guy who does everything wrong. I bet you are think to your self. Why I am like this. I'll show you now.

This is the message that Alyssa sent to me today.

ohh dont even give me that bullshit..
okayy well all i have to say is that im so serious no games.
i regret everything i did and everything we went thru with eachother as a couple! today meeting you ex gf michelle was probably the most exciting thing that's happened todayy.. yeah and its is pretty daymn sad what she did to you but i don't blame her. how dare you even have the nerve to tell people what we did with eachother. or even our business. i f-ing hate you for that. and to tell you the truth meeting you was the biggest mistake of my life. you are far most the biggest regret i've ever had in my life. how dare you you fuckin do me dirty like that. evrything you did for me and everything you said to me were all lies. telling people our "business" omgodd you got to be kidding me. you're are so daymn low. i could care less of how you think of me. because you running your mouth telling people stuff that should'nt have even been said, it just tells me how you think of me for even going to that level. whether were together or not. how could you. i should've known from the beginning. how could i be so daymn naive and stupid. i hate myself for even being with you. i wish i didnt meet you so i could not feel this way. i hate this feeling. fighting for you going against my family was all for nothing. it was so not worth it. im very truly sorry for even having that chance to be with you. and this is the way i feel. that's what guys do they hurt girls and they don't give a daymn. and you so have proved to me that all guys are the same until someone can prove me wrong! just don't ever say my name out of your mouth. lets go on with our lives knowing we didnt meet eachother erasing every moment we had spent with eachother. i know you will not care of how i feel with you cause it is true i am just another girl. but just know how i feel. and just dont ever remember me. i don't consider you an ex so jsut don't consider me one. and please stop running your mouth telling people what we did. because i alreadyy forgotten.
i can't believe i fell in love with a kind of person like you but im willing to let go and forget everything about you. and fall out of love with you as the day i started when i first fell in love with you. im sorry. but just forget and never remember. GOODBYE!

After you read that. I am pretty sure that you hate me too now right? because i thought i knew how to treat a girl. I thought that i knew how to keep a person happy. I thought i was doing everything right. So you might think that its only one girl you cant be that bad of a guy. Well her example number 2.

This is the message number 2 From x gf Michelle.

whatever jp, you are just full of shit and you're the biggest mistake i've made in my whole life. i wish i never met you. biggest regret ever and i just can't stop thinking about what we did because i fucked up. biggest mistake EVER.. bye.

yeah thats right i am a mistake. i did make mistakes. everything that was right was wrong. every smile that i ever put on her face was not really worth it. everything i really did just turned out to be nothing at all. so i am the one guy you never want to be like.

Now you are thinking. no ure not. its ok people make mistakes. well i keep on making them over and over.

Now this is the hardest thing that i will ever have to do. I have to confess to you. and show you that i am not really the person you think i am.

To Jennifer,

No one knows this but alyssa. I never told you cuz i didnt want this mistake to end us. But i am a mistake. I am sorry. I did you wrong. This is the real reason why we broke up. brace yourself. pls.

Remember how i used to say.
Why men cheat on women.
well that is just stupidest stuff ever.

But then again I am the stupidest thing ever.







Im sorry but i cheated on you. I kissed my ex gf Alyssa.









Know everyone will know. What the real person i am. I am the lowest piece of crap ever. And I know you will hate me too now. Its ok i understand. But i want you to know that all the feelings that i have for you are real. That i did make a mistake. And I am sorry if i was mistake.

Jp, I did not ever find what was right. But i know i am the ones who make all the wrongs. This is the hardest thing i ever had to do. Killing my self now will be a breeze.